Quick to snap, always irritable-- that was the woman I was whenever I came home from work before. I admit that the stress in my workplace took a toll on me and my family suffered the most because of it. In my desire to provide well for them, I worked for a company whose work hours weren't normal. I took the job with the wrong motivation--bigger paycheck. In exchange for the moolah, my relationships began to collapse. I was many times locked, loaded and overreacting because of financial and physical stress. Because the routine was work all night, sleep all day, my husband became a lesser priority and the very few times I spend with him, I would be irritable and hurl sarcasm due to lack of decent sleep. I failed to draw the line between work and family, the latter truly suffering. The heart of my problem was the problem of my heart--greed its poison and pride its fuel. What a sour woman I had become.
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Lord, I acknowledge that my life has been motivated by the wrong reasons. These motivations are earthly and have been the root cause of my irritation towards the one I love. Easily angered, insatiable and too proud -- that is who I have become. I ask forgiveness for all these. Help me understand that pride, bitterness and lust can never ever be satisfied and will only lead to hurting the one I love. Open my heart that I may be able to turn away from these things, that I may be able to release the venom that builds inside, that I may be able to breeze through the anxieties and stress. Teach me your loving ways so that I may deliver only what is good for my loved ones and be a "joy" and not a "jerk" in my marriage -- a calming breeze and not the storm. In Jesus name, Amen.
He who is slow to anger is better than the mighty, and he who rules his spirit, than he who captures a city. -- Proverbs 16:32
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Lord, I acknowledge that my life has been motivated by the wrong reasons. These motivations are earthly and have been the root cause of my irritation towards the one I love. Easily angered, insatiable and too proud -- that is who I have become. I ask forgiveness for all these. Help me understand that pride, bitterness and lust can never ever be satisfied and will only lead to hurting the one I love. Open my heart that I may be able to turn away from these things, that I may be able to release the venom that builds inside, that I may be able to breeze through the anxieties and stress. Teach me your loving ways so that I may deliver only what is good for my loved ones and be a "joy" and not a "jerk" in my marriage -- a calming breeze and not the storm. In Jesus name, Amen.
He who is slow to anger is better than the mighty, and he who rules his spirit, than he who captures a city. -- Proverbs 16:32