Love is a choice, never a feeling. I had a choice--the choice to look past the hurt and frustrations in my marriage. Yet I chose otherwise. I made decisions that bruised an ego, abused trust, hurt a heart, severed an intimacy and almost killed a marriage. A fool's choice will always be selfish and faithless and I chose poorly. I saw my reflection in the mirror and I detested what I made of myself, where those decisions led me. I was broken and I had no clue how to put all the pieces back together and I thought I was beyond repair. But God looked past that. He made a choice long before that even when I become faithless, even when I made wrong and foolish choices, He would remain faithful. And He was. He is and He will be! His redeeming love gave me a second shot. He took me by the hand, healed me, repaired all the broken pieces, reformed the ugly parts, and taught me how to fix my mess. He taught me that love makes sacrifices, and it decides and chooses selflessly. And for a love to be like that, it must be His love we begin with. He taught me all these. And more importantly, He taught me that love forgives and responds with grace and mercy. And it is exactly what He also taught my husband.
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Lord, for a very long time I've been guilty of so many things. Those things have made me the "enemy" in my marriage. I became the person displeasing to Your eyes and unworthy of ardent love from my husband, too self-absorbed thinking commitment was an option and not a priority, my shifty heart treacherously treating his with contempt, unwittingly becoming the downfall of my relationship. But You Lord have been forbearing of these sins, forgave me and washed me clean. Your love for me remained steadfast, without measure, enduring...faithful. How can I ever thank you, Father? Because of the undeserved love I received from You, I am assured of so many things. I have forgiven myself from my mistakes because You forgave me first. Your redeeming love is what keeps me going. And knowing the man I married is truly an amazing guy and he is Your best for me, I am truly and indescribably thankful. Whatever tests comes to my marriage, whatever mistakes I have done in the past get slammed to my face, however my love maybe returned unwanted, whatever comes between me and my God's best, I am forgiven and Your love for me will remain faithful. That Lord, is all I will ever need. Amen.
I will betroth you to Me in faithfulness. Then you will know the Lord. -- Hosea 2:20
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Lord, for a very long time I've been guilty of so many things. Those things have made me the "enemy" in my marriage. I became the person displeasing to Your eyes and unworthy of ardent love from my husband, too self-absorbed thinking commitment was an option and not a priority, my shifty heart treacherously treating his with contempt, unwittingly becoming the downfall of my relationship. But You Lord have been forbearing of these sins, forgave me and washed me clean. Your love for me remained steadfast, without measure, enduring...faithful. How can I ever thank you, Father? Because of the undeserved love I received from You, I am assured of so many things. I have forgiven myself from my mistakes because You forgave me first. Your redeeming love is what keeps me going. And knowing the man I married is truly an amazing guy and he is Your best for me, I am truly and indescribably thankful. Whatever tests comes to my marriage, whatever mistakes I have done in the past get slammed to my face, however my love maybe returned unwanted, whatever comes between me and my God's best, I am forgiven and Your love for me will remain faithful. That Lord, is all I will ever need. Amen.
I will betroth you to Me in faithfulness. Then you will know the Lord. -- Hosea 2:20