If one was to visit a special chamber of my heart, one can see that I have listed there, every single hurt I have nurtured, every injury I sustained, every disappointment I felt, every expectation that were unmet in my marriage. Therein festered all of those ugly feeling I harbored and without realizing it, I let the decay spread to all other chambers, slowly killing the love in my marriage. It drained every joy and poisoned the way I saw my husband. What I used to see as admiration turned loathing, respect turned to disdain. I failed to be the champion for my husband. I failed to believe the best in him and became blinded to the things I used to be grateful for about him. And as I went through this dare, I realized that indeed love is a decision--a choice to believe the best in my marriage, in my husband.
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Lord, I have stayed far too long in the Depreciation Room. I used to go there a lot to feed my resentments, displeasures and discontent, eventually breeding much more darker feelings towards the one I love. This room has led me to magnify the weakness and failures of those I love while proudly defending and justifying mine. My ill feelings and negative emotions were strengthened, making all my baggages heavier, my hurts ache even more and my issues left unresolved. I'm sorry I go to this room for the wrong reasons, Father. Take me out of this place and lead me to the long forgotten Appreciation Room. Walk me through the dark corridors of my heart and lead me to the bright light, that I may dwell and make this my home. Help me focus on the amazing attributes that makes my husband a great man, and open my eyes, my mind and my heart, that I may explore and discover further the pages of the book that tells the wonderful story of my God's best, to be his suitable helper in realizing the dreams and hopes he has for our family, to believe the best in him always. Amen.
[Love] believes all things, hopes all things. -- 1 Corinthians 13:7
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Lord, I have stayed far too long in the Depreciation Room. I used to go there a lot to feed my resentments, displeasures and discontent, eventually breeding much more darker feelings towards the one I love. This room has led me to magnify the weakness and failures of those I love while proudly defending and justifying mine. My ill feelings and negative emotions were strengthened, making all my baggages heavier, my hurts ache even more and my issues left unresolved. I'm sorry I go to this room for the wrong reasons, Father. Take me out of this place and lead me to the long forgotten Appreciation Room. Walk me through the dark corridors of my heart and lead me to the bright light, that I may dwell and make this my home. Help me focus on the amazing attributes that makes my husband a great man, and open my eyes, my mind and my heart, that I may explore and discover further the pages of the book that tells the wonderful story of my God's best, to be his suitable helper in realizing the dreams and hopes he has for our family, to believe the best in him always. Amen.
[Love] believes all things, hopes all things. -- 1 Corinthians 13:7